What I Have Lost

I know through the years

There were good times and bad

Unfortunately what hurts

I remember the bad

I’ve disappointed you

In so many ways

The drinking, the drugging

Almost forgetting your special day

I know you’ve lost trust

Today is a new day

I’m sobering up

While missing you the same

The days are getting better

I’m recalling the good days

I know that this year

I’ll remember your special day

by Jill Smith

There Is A God

fast train from ne033x on Vimeo.

This poem may not rhyme,
It may not say what a poem should;
And the only reason I'm writing it
Is because a friend asked if I woukld.
So many things have been said and done
In this life of mine:
Some good to be embraced -
Most better left behind.
But, the truth is, And I'll say this but once;
Life is truly beautiful
If we just give it a chance!

Right now, my heart is broken,
Laying, crushed on the floor;
There's no reason for me to carry on -
What reason is there for?
I know where I've been -
I know where I am;
You can't imagine the pain
That I must muster just to stand.
Yet, stand I do,
And speak, I must;
For a message to share -
In what I've come to trust...

My heart has been broken
More times than you know;
By life, by man,
By even my ego.
I've spent two years
In a loneliness you can't imagine;
Unless you've been in solitary confinement
In a man made prison.
I've lost me soul mate
Just weeks before we were wed -
Do you know what it's like to really lose,
"I'm sorry, Danny, she's dead."
I've lost my children,
Everyone sees me as a thug;
When they were my hope -
My reason for getting off drugs...

Right now,
Even as I speak these words;
I don't ask for sympathy -
Just maybe that one person heard.
My love is gone -
Once again I feel pain;
Yet I stand tall and proud -
Faith in something beyond this rain...

There is a God!
I've felt Him here with me;
It's what carries me on
When I should have broke free.
There is a God -
I wish I could show you the way!
You'd break free right now
 And escape your yesterday!

My dreams keep me going -
Right here and right now,
A brighter tomorrow -
Of this, I vow.

I love you, Dara,
And I understand you had to move on;
For Blaze and everything good -
Beyond what we knew was wrong.

by ne033x aka Danny Watson

Addiction

Blindness.
A cloud of ignorance encompasses me.
Nothing can distract me from my dream.

Nothing... except -
The newfound hope of a better future
That overshadows previous fantasy.

Looking back, it's somewhat sad -
Everything that could have happened, but didn't,
Everything I was missing over the past four years.

True, there's anger - there's hurt.
But only for a while. Now I focus
On the wonderful blessings God has given me.

What I have now is *wholesome*,
And infinitely more worthwhile
Than anything I imagined I *might* obtain.

I was infatuated to the point of stupidity,
And would sacrifice anything for slim possibility...
Because I believe in miracles.

*Yes*, I believe in miracles -
The miracle that I could want something better for me,
And that my addiction paved the way for my brighter future.


by Amandanette

A Crystal Meth Poem

If my glamorous lifestyle is appealing to you.

And you want to try me because you've nothing to lose.

Then, let me give you a bit of advice.

You are a fool. And you'd better think twice.

I destroy homes. I tear families apart.

I take your children and that's just the start.

I'm more valued than diamonds.

More precious than gold.

The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold.

If you need me, remember; I'm easily found.

I live all around you. In school and in town.

I live with the rich. I live with the poor.

I live just down the road. And maybe next door.

I'm made in a lab, but not in one like you think.

I can be made under your kitchen sink.

Or in your child's closet and even out in the woods.

If this scares you to death, It certainly should.

I have many names, one you'll know best.

I'm sure you've heard of me. My name's Crystal Meth.

My power is awesome. Try me you'll see.

But if you do, You may never break free.

Just try me once and I might let you go.

But if you try me twice, then I own your soul.

When I posses you, You'll steal and lie.

You'll do what you have to Just to get high.

The crimes you'll commit, For my narcotic charms

Will be worth the pleasure, You'll feel in my arms.

You'll lie to your mother. You'll steal from your dad.

When you see their tears you must not feel sad.

Just forget your morals and how you were raised.

I'll be your conscious. I'll teach you my ways.

I take kids from their parents. I take parents from kids.

I turn people from God. I separate friends.

I'll take everything from you; Even your good looks and your pride.

I'll be with you always. Right here by your side.

You'll give up everything; Your family, your home

Your money, your friends, You'll be all alone.

I'll take and I'll take 'Til you've no more to give.

When I'm finished with you, you'll be lucky to live.

If you try me be warned: THIS IS NOT A GAME.

If I'm given the chance, I'll drive you insane.

I'll ravage your body. I'll control your mind.

I'll own you completely. Your soul will be mine.

The nightmares I'll give you when your lying in bed.

And the voices you'll hear from inside your head.

The sweats, the shakes, and the visions you'll see.

I want you to know: These are your gifts from me.

By then it's to late and you'll know in your heart

That you are now mine, And we shall not part.

You'll regret that you tried me. (They always do.)

Remember, you came to me. Not I, to you.

You knew this would happen. How many times were you told?

But you challenged my power. You chose to be bold.

You could have said "No" and then walked away.

If you could live that day over now, what would you say?

My power is awesome as I told you before.

I can take your mother and turn her into a whore.

Go ahead and curse me with every breath.

Just make your choice: Will it be life or meth?

You will take unknown paths on your journey through life.

Some will bring happiness. Some will bring strife.

But, my path is one you must not ever cross.

Although it's well trodden countless lives have been lost.

Now that you've met me, what will you do?

Will you try me or not? It's all up to you.

I can show you more misery than words can tell.

Come, take my hand. Let me lead you to Hell.

Meth Kills!!